Post by milo on Jan 15, 2010 18:45:57 GMT -5
MILO LYSANDERKINCADE.
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* FEELS JUST LIKE WE'RE LOSING CONTROL.
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[/size][/font]TELL US ABOUT YOURSELF.
"My name is Milo Lysander Kincade. For the most part people just call me Milo because that is my name. I like my name and I believe it fits me. I am rather uncomfortable talking about myself in much detail but I will try. This is required after all, I believe. I am 16 years, three months and 4 days old today. I could find out the precise hours and minutes and seconds if you wish. I am German through my mother’s side of the family. My father named me. He liked Shakespeare. I am a male in case that was unclear. I feel I needed to mention that. I consider myself asexual. I am not sexually attracted to ay one, male or female or some combination thereof. I do not like the idea of sex. I have never had it nor do I desire to. Have never kissed another human being though this I believe I would like to try. I fell I may be romantically attracted to those of my own gender. So I am homo-romantic. This is, however just another label. I dislike labels though they are necessary especially in a place such as this. Labels are important when you do not understand the subject. That was an insult by the way, a small insult. I do not consider myself pretty those others disagree. I have bond hair that my friend has dyed black streaks into for me. I like my hair. I also have dark eyes. I am a small individual, though I do no mind this. I am short for my age (five foot three and one quarter inches) and slim. I have been told I look like Kiro and I do not mind the resemblance."
TELL US ABOUT YOUR MEDICAL HISTORY.
[/size][/font]"I was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder, nonspecific when I was very young. I do not remember being diagnosed only that it was told to be when I was little. Accommodations were made for me while I was young. My brain does not filter stimuli like most brains do. I am constantly assaulted with feelings, sensations, smells, sights, sounds and such without any way to filter them off. I hear and feel and smell and see everything that I can at any given time. It is not pleasant. It is often very overwhelming. It affects everything I do. When I was younger I would rock and bang my head into walls and flap my hands just to deal with the constant flow of signals to my brain. I was very self injurious. I was not a stable child. Additionally I have synesthesia. This means that these signals for smell or sound or feeling getting mixed up in my brain and output a different signal. I may receive a smell from a touch or a sound from a taste or something like that. I am told it is very similar to being on acid. It is not really a hallucination, or a series of hallucinations but I believe it is close. I do not like these disorders. They are troublesome and bothersome. I am socially inept because I can not understand what most people, nero-typicals, are saying. They confuse me because they often say things they do not mean literal and I am a literal person. I am not good at reading people’s emotions or expressing my own emotion because of my disorders. I am often overwhelmed and sometimes violent towards myself or towards others because of this. I have been known to strike people when they touch me or bang my head against walls when I can not focus and the world is too much for me to comprehend. I hardly speak. I am not very functional. I believe that is why I am here."
HOW CAN WE ACCOMODATE YOU BETTER?
[/size][/font]"I do not like people for the most part, when they are interacting with me. I question them and I can not understand them and they can not understand me. I like watching people though. I like observing them and paying attention to the way they move and speak and act. It is all very interesting for me and this I do not mind. It is the speaking and interacting I mind because I am never quite sure how to act or react. People give you clues with their voices and their bodies and their words but I am to privy to any of this information. I am metaphorically deaf dumb and blind when it comes to this. I do not like it. I like being by myself and I like reading. I like reading nonfiction books and informative studies on a wide range of topics. I like knowing things and being informed. I do not forget anything I have read. It is a talent of mine. I am exceptionally good at math because it is all numbers and numbers are easy for me. I understand numbers in a way I will never understand people. I like being on my own with numbers and math. There are some people I do not mind, some people I allow to touch me and spend time with me. They are quiet people and understanding people and sweet people and I do not find many of them here I this place. I do not mind this. I believe I am better off alone at any rate. I do not sleep well. I need medication to allow me to sleep because I hear and smell and taste and feel things even when I am trying to sleep. It is too overwhelming and my brain does not wish for me to rest. I know I am easily manipulated because I have been told this before by my therapists. I want badly to be accepted by someone and this is true. I want someone who likes and understand me for who I am, not for anything else. I want this badly but I do not know how to achieve this. I am not sure. I fear the dark. There is always a light o in my room even when I sleep. I do not like the dark at all. It cuts me off to much and I am scared of it. I flap my hands sometimes when I am overwhelmed with sensation and I rock and mumble incoherent sounds. I am not stupid. I am just messed up.“
TELL US ABOUT YOUR PAST.
[/size][/font]"I was born and spent most of my life in Hartford CT. It is a big city with big city sounds and feelings and smells. I did not like it. I still do not like it. It is too overwhelming for me. There is too much going on, too much to sense. I grew up with my father for the majority of my childhood though this is not entirely accurate. I was a difficult child because of my disorders and difficult in more than one way. I was physically demanding because I needed special attention and care. I like my schedules and plans and I needed to stick to a schedule or I would be very upset. I only played with certain colored or textured toys. I would only eat certain foods. I was a finicky baby. Additionally I did not like to be touched or handled and would fuss when I was. This is emotionally draining for parents who only want love form their child. I was sick a lot as a young child from not eating the right foods and doctors offices frightened and upset me. My mother left when I was five and I am certain it was because of me. My therapist tells me not to assume, but I do anyway. I did not like school. The material was either entirely to complex (usually in reading and that sort of thing) or entirely to simple (in math and science) for me to get anything out of it. I was moved to a special school for special needs kids when I was seven. That was much easier but I was still out of place. I was among people and I am out of place among people. I got into altercations when I was in school. Bullies picked on me and I would swing to defend myself or stop the world from going out of control. Eventually it got to much for the school to handle and I was expelled. I came here shortly after that" I do not particularly like it here, but it is better than out there.
IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE?
[/size][/font]"Not that I can think of no. Nothing else. {/font]
THE MASTERMIND BEHIND IT ALL.
[/size][/font]hey, my name is Twitch [/color] i have 19[/color] tracks spinning on my record. this is my FIRST [/color] character. i have been roleplaying for eight years or so[/color]. the password is silicone and saline, poison inject me[/color].[/font][/size]
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Fin was a special breed of person and Aki knew this and accepted this about his friend. Aki didn't consider Fin a freak because he himself had many things 'wrong' with him. Fin was just a little more upfront about his differences than Aki. Fin stood out and Aki stayed in the shadows of normalcy, at least until someone spoke to him a realized the shy little vampire was very different from what they were expecting.
Normally Aki was adverse to touch and feeling because it overwhelmed more than just one sense. He was getting better at this though and daily contact with Fin was an accelerated lesson in and of itself. Fin had very little rules governing his touches and though Aki didn't know it, Fin was even holding himself back a bit. Still the touches got overwhelming at times, causing Aki to sputter and ask for release to calm his senses down for a moment. This only happened a few times and he was getting better at that too.
"Like a strawberry lollipop," Aki informed Fin when the boy asked for the 'flavor of the day'. He always asked this question and at first he wasn't sure exactly what Fin had meant but now he knew. Fin always made him taste sweet things and Aki didn't know why. The taste was always different depending on the day, the touch and the person. But Fin always called pleasant and sweet tastes to his tongue.
Aki liked his friend in every sort of way right down to his shift and down t his shadow. Fin had shifted for him before into a rather beautiful little tasmanian devil. Aki was fascinated by this power. He himself could manipulate fire and play wit it and change it but it seemed so mundane to him next to his friend who could change himself entirely. Aki was often fascinated by small things and his friend's ability to shift was not a small thing. It was intresting and exciting and Aki loved watching it. That idea seemed a very good one to him.
They walked along in silence because Aki often spoke very little. He preferred to allow others to do te speaking and was quite content remaining quiet most of the time. Little Kat, his dwarf hamster shadow poked her head out from Aki's pocket. "Food," she said in her sweet little voice. "Food is good for him." She was always reminding him of things he would usually have forgotten. Because he himself did not need to eat (except to sastify his blood lust) he forgot others needed to.
The blood lust he had for Fin was not strong at all, which wa perhaps a good thing. It was not the sort of blood lust he had for Fox, where he always needed to kep it in check. He thought about it with Fin, as was the curse of being a vampire, but it was quite easy to manage with this friend. Aki wasn't sure why but he did not question it. 'It's because you don't fancy him' the little dwarf hamster told hm, always able to seemingly read his mind and know what he was thiking. He accecpted this answer.
"Perhaps," Aki said, slowly, in time with his perfectly executed steps. "We may return to your house. You may eat and then I may scratch the tasmain devil's tummy and then perhaps we may go swimming." It seemed a perfectly good day to little Aki-chan..
Normally Aki was adverse to touch and feeling because it overwhelmed more than just one sense. He was getting better at this though and daily contact with Fin was an accelerated lesson in and of itself. Fin had very little rules governing his touches and though Aki didn't know it, Fin was even holding himself back a bit. Still the touches got overwhelming at times, causing Aki to sputter and ask for release to calm his senses down for a moment. This only happened a few times and he was getting better at that too.
"Like a strawberry lollipop," Aki informed Fin when the boy asked for the 'flavor of the day'. He always asked this question and at first he wasn't sure exactly what Fin had meant but now he knew. Fin always made him taste sweet things and Aki didn't know why. The taste was always different depending on the day, the touch and the person. But Fin always called pleasant and sweet tastes to his tongue.
Aki liked his friend in every sort of way right down to his shift and down t his shadow. Fin had shifted for him before into a rather beautiful little tasmanian devil. Aki was fascinated by this power. He himself could manipulate fire and play wit it and change it but it seemed so mundane to him next to his friend who could change himself entirely. Aki was often fascinated by small things and his friend's ability to shift was not a small thing. It was intresting and exciting and Aki loved watching it. That idea seemed a very good one to him.
They walked along in silence because Aki often spoke very little. He preferred to allow others to do te speaking and was quite content remaining quiet most of the time. Little Kat, his dwarf hamster shadow poked her head out from Aki's pocket. "Food," she said in her sweet little voice. "Food is good for him." She was always reminding him of things he would usually have forgotten. Because he himself did not need to eat (except to sastify his blood lust) he forgot others needed to.
The blood lust he had for Fin was not strong at all, which wa perhaps a good thing. It was not the sort of blood lust he had for Fox, where he always needed to kep it in check. He thought about it with Fin, as was the curse of being a vampire, but it was quite easy to manage with this friend. Aki wasn't sure why but he did not question it. 'It's because you don't fancy him' the little dwarf hamster told hm, always able to seemingly read his mind and know what he was thiking. He accecpted this answer.
"Perhaps," Aki said, slowly, in time with his perfectly executed steps. "We may return to your house. You may eat and then I may scratch the tasmain devil's tummy and then perhaps we may go swimming." It seemed a perfectly good day to little Aki-chan..
