Post by * LEAH MAY PARKER. on Jan 3, 2010 18:06:21 GMT -5
LEAH MAY PARKER.
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* FEELS JUST LIKE WE'RE LOSING CONTROL.
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TELL US ABOUT YOURSELF.
"hi, i'm leah may parker. but you can just call me leah. some people call me parker too, but really, i don't care. i'm sixteen years old, born on december eighth. i'm from a small town in georgia. i think it's fairly obvious, but since it's kind of necessary for the form, i'll tell you i'm a girl, and i take an interest in the guys only. a lot of people in my high school tell me i look like some girl named zoe kimball? i don't really know who she is, but i googled her out of curiousity, and just got a ton of pictures. i take it she's a model or something? i don't really know. anyway, i guess if people say i look like her (and i don't really see the resemblence) i might as well describe myself so you can determine that on your own.
"for starters, i'm a pretty good height for a girl. i stand at 5'5" even. i have somewhat long legs, and a long torso. my hair is a dirty blonde - kind of a golden color. during the summer it gets really light, and some people ask me if i bleach it. i don't really bleach it, even though it looks like it. it just turns really blonde. i don't like using product on my hair to permanently change it. besides, if it were bleached, i don't think it'd be able to get darker in the winter. it kind of turns a really light shade of brown during the winter. i like it mostly mid spring and mid fall, when it's a good balance in between (when it really gets golden). my eyes are bright blue, which really stand out, and I have light freckles on my cheekbones and nose. i'm a pretty pale girl, but i tan, i don't burn. my lips are really pink, and my smile is really bright due to a product i use to whiten my teeth. as far as any physical habbits go for me, i bite my nails. my mom said that if i gave them time to grow (which has been my new year's resolution for years) then they would be beautiful. i guess she's right. they would enlongate my thin, but kind of short fingers. my style varies, so i won't go into much debth about that."
TELL US ABOUT YOUR MEDICAL HISTORY.
[/size][/font]"well, they put me here for a reason, of course. actually, two, maybe three? okay, four, but only if you count my parents not wanting to be known for having a 'crazy' child as a reason.
"the first real reason is because they call me a pyromaniac, which i'm not. i mean, i enjoy flames more than i should, but i don't go around lighting buildings on fire because i like to watch them burn. i'd never go that far. i just like to light matches, watch candles, stick corners of paper into flames to watch it dissapear. really, that's not anything a usual teen doesn't like. i'm sure if you call me a pyromaniac then there would be a lot more of me in here. the real reason i'm here though as a pyromaniac, is that my mother let it slip out of her mouth that i constantly carry matches in my pocket, and not because i smoke (because i don't). on more than one occasion i've made small fires around my yard. i would steal matches from a miscellaneous drawer in the kitchen, and then make small piles of twigs and just light them on fire. i never left one unattended. i'm smart with fire. eventually, my dad built me a firepit in the backyard so i could burn without drawing too much attention, or risk anything burning to be blown away. i'd never hurt anyone with flames, or do any major damage.
"before my parents enrolled me as a pyromaniac unintentionally, they said that i had undifferentiated schizophrenia. this pretty much means that i have symptoms of various forms of schizophrenia. most people wouldn't accept this, they'd be stubborn and say that they really did see things, or that they didn't have it. i'm not like that. i don't see the point. i mean, i am stubborn and i argue about things like that, but i don't do it all the effing time.
"my case of schizo became kind of apparent when i was younger. i would see things, hear things. you know, the works. it was simple to diagnose me even after hearing those words. sadly, they wanted to do even more tests to determine what kind i had. i had only a few of the symptoms, but it was still diagnosed. i was hallucinating and laughing at all of the wrong times. my emotions didn't always match the enviornment i was in. at my grandmother's funeral, i started laughing so hard... i had to be removed. don't get me wrong, i was so destroyed from my grandmother's death, but something just made me laugh. i was dellusional every now and then too, but not often. it was really the only thing that would get me undifferentiated schizo., because my dellusions were sometimes of persecution. that was all that made it undifferentiated. i also have disordered thinking, which is one of the symptoms.
"another of the symptoms is repetitive behaviours. that kind of tags along with me because before i was diagnosed with schizo i had been told i have a mild form of ocd. it's not the kind that takes over everything i do. it's just the simple, everything has to be straight, even, organized, in it's certain play, if it doesn't look right i'll fix it, i have to keep doing an activity until it feels right. i have routines that i can't change, like before bed. i won't be able to sleep if i forget something in my routine, so i start over until i have it down. it's really not that extreme as some people may think, but it's very obvious. i've been trying to train myself not to care so much, but it's been diffficult. i know what you're thinking: 'boy, that girl's drenched head to toe in issues - first pyro, then schizo, then ocd? i don't want to get involved.' well, that's your loss, because once you get to know me, these things sort of dissapear."
HOW CAN WE ACCOMODATE YOU BETTER?
[/size][/font]"it's not that difficult to get along with me. i'm very much a people person. i'm outgoing, and probably too nice for my own good. i like to think i'm patient, and it takes a lot to irk me (unless you intentionally tilt a photo, or put things out of place). that might annoy me, but i won't really get angry. in order for me to get angry, you really have to push my buttons and get on my last nerve. like i said though, that's difficult. i'm really an accepting person, and sadly, pretty obediant. once i set my mind to something though, i'm doing it. i'm stubborn to say the least, but i can be flexible. as far as opinions go, that's when i get stubborn. my opinion is my opinion, and you shouldn't care for that or try to change it.
"so, i've said how i'm really nice, a wonderful person, yadayadayada. yeah, i'm sure everyone would like to believe that (i have been told i am though), but there are my terrible attributes. it's really just my temper. i'm not really a violent person, unless you're physical with me first. the worst i'll do is be mean with words, yell at you - you know, the works. i'm not going to go around throwing punches because that one pencil on your desk isn't straight. no, the only reason i'll get physical is if you provoke me with violence. if you give me a shot though, i'm really not that difficult to get along with.
"want to know what to do to not get on my bad side? it doesn't take a lot. just be yourself. i'll decide whether or not you're worth it. anyway, if you want to kiss up to the boss, then here's a few tips. i love really random things. i love old books, old photos, old everything. i also love music and dancing (i'm an irish step dancer), and the arts. by arts i don't mean acting (because i'm really bad at talking in public - some people can't really understand me), i mean photography and art. i like to sketch and take photos. i also love adventures, and breaking the rules because it gives me a thrill. i won't go breaking the rules all of the time though.
"it bothers me when people think that they're all that. really, just be yourself and you're no better than anyone else. other people constantly annoy me, just some of their little quirks and habbits. normally i can get past them, but there are some things that just bother me as i get to know people. i have little quirks and habbits, which is part of the ocd-ness of me. i bite my nails, constantly fix things, and so forth. either you get to know me and deal with my little things (like my occasional talking to things that i'm pretty sure are there, and other people say aren't), or you stop wasting my time."
TELL US ABOUT YOUR PAST.
[/size][/font]"okay, so i had a really normal childhood, once you get past all the fire and fixing things and talking to 'myself'. i was born in a small town in georgia into a loving home. i was originally a twin. that's terrible wording isn't it? 'originally a twin.' well, it's kind of true. i was a twin, but my parents say that my sister died at birth. i kind of wish i knew her and she hadn't. i think that it'd be really great to have a sister. as much as i like the only child, get what i want sort of thing - i don't like being spoiled while some of my friends are in no position to be. besides, if i had a sister, we could share clothes and i just think a twin sister would be cool. sadly, that's pretty impossible, isn't it? i don't even get to hear about her, not that there's much to hear about. i don't think they even named her, if they did they never told me. they don't talk much about her. in fact, i've never heard her mentioned since i asked why there was a picture of two babies in my photo album. my parents are pretty concerned with how they are in society, so they keep in on the dl. i never mention her either, it's terrible, i know, but i don't. i don't want to ruin that standard my parents have.
"anyway, enough of my sad loss, my parents always new i was different from the other kids. i didn't have that many friends when i was younger. the kids at school thought that it was weird that i was always talking to 'imaginary friends' and drawing pictures of fire. one time, when the art teacher told us to draw chaos, i couldn't. everyone was splatter painting (which i liked, so i did too), and drawing swirls. i was trying, really, but it looked too neat to be chaotic. i kept on going over the faded parts so it looked evenly coated, and it just didn't come out very good.
"when i was ten my parents took me to the doctor and they were all like, 'oh, you have a mild case of ocd.' i didn't even know if that was possible. apparently it is. when i hit high school, the schizo got real bad. the hallucinations really started happening more so than before, and sometimes i couldn't tell the difference between who was there and who wasn't. me and my friends went to the mall once. at the food court they had me reserve a table, and an old lady came up to me, asking if she could take a seat just for a minute, because i looked like a sweet girl and she needed a break. i let her, and we had a conversation. next thing i know, my friends are back and people from other tables were laughing and whispering things. as we left someone yelled 'schizo!' and i got pretty embarressed. for a while i ignored a lot of things, stayed alone. then i started adjusting back to everyone.
i kept it real low key around my parents. who wanted a child with more than one problem? this problem, i thought, couldn't be tolerable, so i hid it. one day though, my parents kind of noticed me talking to myself - having a full out argument, with nobody there. so they got me diagnosed with yet another problem. schizophrenia. that led me here, to alkaline. i guess it's not as terrible as it could be, but it's not the best. i kind of just want to get out of here and leave - go back to my old life. i miss all of my friends. if this place will help me get better and get out of here faster, then i'm going to try to make the best of it. i feel like a dissapointement to my parents because i have so many issues. they didn't tell the world about my sister, so i'm guessing they tell everyone i'm at a boarding school or something. i don't even know what they tell my friends. they're loving parents. the pyro was fixable - build me a fire pit, say it's the young fascination everyone has. they fixed ocd by looking at it as a good thing - telling everyone i was a perfectionist. schizo though? they had no real way of fixing for society."
IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE?
[/size][/font]"oh, i sleeptalk and sleepwalk, but it's not like it's really a problem. i very rarely sleepwalk, only a few times a year. i sleeptalk a lot though. i actually scream when i have nightmares though. i'm a restless sleeper - i toss and turn a lot, but i think that's all i forgot to mention before."
THE MASTERMIND BEHIND IT ALL.
[/size][/font]hey, my name is ALICE.[/color] i have MY FAVOURITE[/color] tracks spinning on my record. this is my SECOND[/color] character. i have been roleplaying for THREE YEARS[/color]. the password is POSION, INJECT ME SILICONE AND SALINE[/color].[/font][/size]
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can i say check out jessica anne rexing?
